caramelorchoco

Title: If Love - [4/?]
Author: caramelorchoco
Pairing: Leeteuk/Taeyeon, Donghae/Jessica, Kyuhyun/OC, Sunny/Sungmin,
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I sadly do not own super junior or snsd. I do own the fictional plot.
Summary: An ongoing tale on the love life of various super junior members, learning about life and love each in their own way.

Author's note: Thanks so much for the comments! I really appreciate them. I just started college so the chapters to come may be a bit slow :( sorry but OMG YAY SUPERSHOW3 IN MALAYSIA BABY!!!

Chapter 4
Know that I cry when you tell me you love me

Leeteuk stood silently in front of Taeyeon, his hands resting on the sides of the table, forming a cage around her. He bent down to look into her eyes.

‘Don’t you like it?’ the question escaped his lips.

‘No, I do- it’s lovely, Jungsoo – it’s just that – how much…’ she trailed off. Leeteuk smiled and gave a small chuckle.

‘Yah, I don’t want to be the kind of boyfriend who lets his girl worry about money.’

‘Why not? I think I have a right to worry – ‘

‘Taeyeon.’

Leeteuk took Taeyeon’s hands into his. She looked up at him. He had just dyed his hair blonde for the new album. It looked so good on him, it made him look younger, lighter. Taeyeon wasn’t even going to deny it, the man looked gorgeous.

‘Please. Don’t worry about the money.’

Taeyeon smiled and nodded. Leeteuk smiled back at her, revealing his dimple.

‘Now come on, lets have some cake!’ He took a knife and cut the cake into smaller portions, and dived into the cake with a large fork and licked the icing off it. ‘You know how hard it is to enjoy a simple birthday cake when you’re in Suju, every simple cake just gets smushed to your face!’

Taeyeon just stood there, watching the 27 year old enjoying his cake. It touched her how much effort Teuk had put into the whole affair. She never felt more appreciated by a boyfriend before. She took the necklace, eager to put it on.

‘Eh, there’s two here.’

‘Yeah, the other one’s for me. We can wear it when we’re travelling or not with each other,’ Leeteuk mumbled as he stuffed a piece of cake in his mouth. Taeyeon stood silently, her mouth dropping slightly a little.

She walked closer to Leeteuk and took a seat next to him.

Was he serious?

Matching jewelry? It’s so obvious, their fans would definitely notice. It’s too much of a coincidence, especially if they wear it everywhere they went. The crazy netizens would go crazy if they found out. The media would most definitely blow everything out of proportion.

It’s just too much of a risk. Taeyeon looked at him with the most confused look. He looked back at her, smiling, frosting smeared on his cheek. She smiled. It’s so typical of Leeteuk to ask his girlfriend to wear matching jewelry, even if she was a celebrity.

She thought it was nice to know that he had such confidence in the relationship to give her a matching necklace. It was, just nice to know.

‘I know you’re worried.’

Taeyeon looked at him as he said that.

‘What if our fans notice or if the papers find out?’ Taeyeon stayed quiet. ‘It’s okay, I’ve had those thoughts too.’

Leeteuk fixed his eyes on the cake, fiddling with the fork. He was afraid to see Taeyeon’s face then. Afraid to see the expression, to see an unconvinced look on her face, to see that she had doubts about their relationship.

Because he didn’t want to know that. He didn’t want her to doubt their relationship. He wanted her. He knew it was selfish, he was probably doing all of this for himself without even considering how she felt and thought but it was all just so right to him.

Everything with her seems so peaceful, everything just seem to fit right into place when he’s with her and he didn’t want to lose that. He couldn’t lose it.

‘It’s okay if you don’t wear it, I suppose,’ Leeteuk said in a low tone.

‘No! No, it’s okay,’ Taeyeon suddenly stood up and Leeteuk followed her. They were standing right in front of each other.

Taeyeon took a hold of his left hand, holding it closely to hers. He smiled and felt the warmth of her hands in his palms. This is how it should be.

‘I’ll wear it, and I’ll always remember of you when I wear it. I’ll wear it for you,’ Taeyeon promised. Leeteuk smiled, his heart bursting with happiness. He stepped in for a hug.

He held her tight in his arms. In his mind, he never really wanted to let go. In hers, she didn’t really want him to.

She kissed him, she could feel herself falling in love with him but she didn’t mind. She wanted to be his. She wanted to have him, even when she knew having him was the hardest thing she could do.

‘Saranghaeyo Jungsu’

Leeteuk quietly shed a tear.

 [Already in sujuhet]

[Already posted this on sujuhet but wanted it on my entries :) ]

Title: If Love

Fandom: Super Junior, SNSD
Title: If Love
Pairing/Characters: Leeteuk/Taeyeon, Donghae/Jessica, Sungmin/Sunny, Suju members/OC
Rating: PG15
Disclaimer: I do not own SuperJunior or SNSD. I do take ownership of the fictional plot.
Summary: An ongoing collection of the lovelife of various members, each with their own tale to tell.

[First time writing a suju fanfic, been kinda bored of studying all the time, so this is what happens when i'm bored :P. Taeteuk chapter first, just cuz I SHIP THEM SO HARD. Next chapter will come......soon]

Chapter 1
Date Night Late At Night

He was tired.

He could feel himself drifting into thin air sometimes, before snapping out of it before the start of a broadcast.

He could feel his entire weight succumbing to gravity’s hands sometimes, before Eunhyuk quickly grabs his shoulders, reminding him of the next gag sketch they had to do next.

He wasn’t very sure if it was depression but there were a lot of things in his mind nowadays. The album, the concerts, the members… the members. Leeteuk still had a hard time believing where they were now, after so many years of being together, his team would be somewhat divided. It was different now, all of them could feel it. They could say whatever they wanted to say on television, that everything was okay, that the members were alright, the truth was it really wasn’t.

It still gave Leeteuk a glimmer of hope, that after everything that had happened, the members still loved each other. He could see it in their eyes, see the way Sungmin would ask once in a while how Kangin was doing in the army, see how Donghae kept pestering the manager for Kibum’s schedule, see the way Kyuhyun would slip in messages to Hankyung through Ryeowook. After everything, they were still friends.

‘What are you thinking so deeply about?’

Leeteuk broke way from his gaze and realized where he was. He was in a room, but it wasn’t his room. He looked around and realized it was a hotel room, he was in a small hotel in the city of Seoul, close to where he was filming his latest show. He was on the bed, wearing only a white shirt and a pair of boxers.

He felt a warm embrace from behind him. The gentle hands that held him tight, softly stroked his chest.

‘Jungsu-ah, what are you thinking about?’
‘Hmmm? Oh, its nothing… nothing. I was just thinking about some stuff,’ Leeteuk replied, a smile forming on his face as his eyes met with hers.
‘You’re such a bad liar,’ she smiled.
‘I’d like to think that I’m very much an accomplished liar, thank you very much,’ he took her hands in his and hugged her tighter.
‘Well, you’re hopeless at lying to me,’ she let go of his hands and laid down on the bed, her feet pinching his waist. ‘Yah, tell me what’s wrong.’

She pinched him more when he replied that there was nothing wrong. She giggled as he held her feet together.
‘Come on, tell me.’
Leeteuk looked at her and she could see his smile fading.
‘Taeyeon-ah….’ He inhaled deeply. ‘I can’t keep telling you about all of my problems. You’d blow up pretty soon if I did so.’

‘Yah, Park Jungsu! You’ve been listening to my problems all day long, it isn’t fair if I don’t know any of yours, where’s the equality in this relationship. Come on, tell me what you’re thinking,’ Taeyeon stared at him for quite some time before accepting the fact that he didn’t want to share stories now.

‘Fine, be that way,’ Taeyeon scowled and got under the sheets. From under the covers, she yelled a muffled, ‘I never liked you anyway, you know that?’
Leeteuk smiled and climbed under the covers, and positioned himself in front of her. She could feel his warm breath on her face but she kept her eyes closed and her arms crossed.
‘I’m sorry.’ She didn’t reply. ‘Tae, I said I’m sorry.’

She felt his hands untangling her crossed arms and placing it on his neck. She still kept her eyes closed.

She felt his warm hands holding her by the waist, stroking her silk nightgown gently to the rhythm of their heartbeats. She still kept her eyes closed.

She felt his hot breath on her ear as he slowly went to whisper a silent confession,
‘saranghae’
She smiled and replied in her heart, but still kept her eyes closed.

Leeteuk was slightly amazed at how stubborn his girlfriend really was and chuckled to himself.
‘You’re really something aren’t you, Kim Taeyeon.’
‘You know it,’ she replied, her eyes still closed. He gave a small chuckle and went closer to her face.

The next sensation she felt wasn’t of his hands against her waist or his whispers against her ear but of his lips gently stroking against hers. Taeyeon was slightly taken aback by the kiss, but didn’t think twice of kissing him back. He had his eyes closed now, and Taeyeon finally opened hers. Her hands that were on his neck went through his hair, toying with it and she smiled slightly at the thought of how it was probably the most important thing to him after her and his members.
Leeteuk kissed her harder and held her closer, never wanting to let go. Taeyeon did the same thing, placing her leg on him and slowly hugging him tightly in her arms.

They had been going through this same routine for quite a while.
They were both too busy to see each other during the day, so they decided to see each other during the night, even if that meant less hours of sleeping (they were already getting less sleep than they should, what difference would it make?)
They would send text messages to each other, discussing where to meet after work and then meeting up at midnight for a late dinner and a stroll through the deserted city, where the possibility of running into a reporter or crazed fangirl/boy was a slim chance.
It had been going on for 9 months.
The members knew and they were happy for the two leaders. Kangin would joke, however, once in a while, when Leeteuk would talk about Taeyeon, with a pout on his face,
‘What about Kangteuk? What happened to US?’
, causing a roar of laughter from the other members.

Leeteuk was worried if someone as young as Taeyeon wouldn’t be thrilled with the thought of dating only at night but she was obviously much more matured than he’d thought her to be. She was happy with the arrangement and came every night with a smile on her face.
After the stroll, Leeteuk would send her back home using the giant black van the companies had lent him and he would continue on with his schedule for the following day. Often times, however, they would head to a hotel room and spend the night together. It was never always about sex though, to be honest, most of the times, they were just too exhausted for sex anyway.

They just needed to be in each other’s company that night.
Taeyeon just needed him to whisper sweet nothings into her ear as she slowly drifted into deep sleep.
Leeteuk just needed to feel of her hands against his hair, telling him that everything was going to be okay and occasionally slip in a lame joke that would totally ruin the whole mood; just the way he likes it.

Taeyeon broke away from the kiss, and looked into Leeteuk’s eyes. Leeteuk smiled as he stared lovingly into her deep brown eyes. He loved the way her eyes were, the way they just curved into her cute nose and how they seemed to sparkle even when she was tired.

‘What shall we do tomorrow night, Leader Leeteuk-shi?’
‘I don’t know, all I know is I want to be with you tomorrow night, wherever we may be.’
Taeyeon poked his dimple and replied,
‘You’re so cheesy for a man of your age, its sickening.’
Leeteuk smiled widely. ‘ Oh but you love it.’
Taeyeon rolled her eyes. Deep inside, however, her heart was bursting with happiness and she wished they could stay like this forever, even though she knew, the tough times for both of them would eventually come.

[ D: how is it? tell me what you guys think]

i've just listened to hangeng's new track, say no. dude got me thinking.

honestly, k-pop is a crazy thing it just makes you so freakin obsessed. obsessed, yet still very happy. there's something these idols that just entertai us so much and its hard for us to realize, but we often lose track of who these people really are.

: / i think super junior's just lost a bit of themselves lately. they've just been a bit..... quiet lately. not in terms of promotion. heck, have u seen them on those shows. but they've been a bit quiet, its like they've been thinking things through lately. 

i think, they deserve a break. honestly, they really deserve it. i think all the members should just get in a car and then take an entire trip around south korea and the get back and get on a plane and go wherever they wanna go. just freakin anywhere, new york, london, egypt, paris, FREAKIN EVERYWHERe, ALL EXPENSES PAID BY SM.

GODDAMMIT SM, these boys have done SO BLOODY much for this company. 

and when they get back, leeteuk would go into the army, they would go on with subgroups. GOD PLEASE GIVE KRY THEIR OWN ALBUM. and each member takes a break once in a while. 

thing is, these boys have established a solid foundation in where they are in this industry. they can do whatever they want if they want to. and i think they should. they shouldnt find themselves restricted to do things because of the fans or the company. why cant they have their own dreams being fulfilled n at the same time, be a part of suju. its actually possible, i dont care whatever anybody says, if everybody would just take a CHILL PILL and just think about it, it is actually possible.

i just hope they themselves realize this.

and i hope the fans realize that they need to take step back for these guys to enjoy life for a while and just savor the moments they have because right now, everything just going so fast for them to even grasp what is going on.

so everybody, just relax (stop making up vids n forums discussing how theyre gonna breakup, omg they lost to taeyang twice n its like the end of the world????)

whatever it is, support them and support thei dreams (which might not be what you think they are)

:) i got ur back suju, the question is, really, does the rest of your fans do?

ugh god

just realized that there's only 4 months to spm T.T

i'm NOT READY

dammit 10 A+ DAMMIT. been looking at result slips thru out the year. tbh, chemistry's the one to beat. out of everything, it had to be chemistry that i am screwing up in. :/ generally not really interested in the subject.

i miss last year, where i had more time

i miss time

ugh T.T god why am i being so bloody emo
gotta listen to suju

FANGIRL TIME!

OMG SHINEE :D i want the new songs, they sound good. saw the teaser :D :D :D onew's hair D: D: D: taemin :D :D :D

 :D

hello livejournal

joined in to give my alia and alya some company

:/ i have exams now 

but i'll be going to us the day after that :D

that is all